Illusions vs. Reality
Tonight it hit me that for at least the last several months of my marriage I had been living an illusion that only existed in my own mind. That’s a scary notion. And it made me really start to wonder. How much of my life as I have known it has been an illusion? How many of my memories have been no more authentic than impressions created solely by me? Is it possible that all of my relationships, friendships, or other connections throughout my life have only been held in importance on my end alone? Am I merely a legend in my own mind?
I find myself analyzing situations from not only the recent past, but the distant past, as well as the present with entirely new eyes. Yes, it is possible that all that I have held dear have merely been my own fantastical creations. Some people have made comments that my ex lost his grasp on reality. I’m beginning to wonder if perhaps I never had a grasp on reality in the first place. What is real? What is merely one’s perception? Does one’s perception create one’s reality? If so, wouldn’t that mean that reality is in fact not real?
JQ75 said,
November 20, 2007 at 6:48 am
First off, you may want to avoid the Matrix series of films. The popular cliche “perception is reality” got to be one for a reason. Our perception has a huge impact on our “reality”. Your last question could drive someone crazy, be careful with it. lol
But seriously, it is a shock when our perception lets us down, as yours did, as everyone’s does from time to time. It is natural to wonder after such a time and it is good to learn to adjust your perception based on the lesson of what tripped it up. But on the other side of the spectrum it is highly unlikely that your perception has been completely misleading you all your life.
And remember it is likely that your perception was mislead by your spouse’s deception.
So be on the lookout for deception, adjust your perception, but rest easy, that your perception hasn’t likely misled you all this time. Take care.
Paige said,
November 20, 2007 at 11:59 pm
I tagged you for a meme.
~Paige